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Last New Year’s Eve, I was convinced that 2010 was going to be a stellar year for me both professionally and personally. I made rather realistic (at the time) plans for the year, but you know what they say about best laid plans. So, I’m really tempted to call 2010 the worst year of my life thus far. However, if I were to succumb to that temptation, I would be neglecting to honor the good that happened despite the pitfalls. So, in no particular order, here’s what I’m grateful for from 2010.
- Although unintentional, I got to stay home with my son
- My son is healthy and thriving
- Breastfeeding into toddlerhood
- Unemployment benefits
- Food, shelter and clothing
- Spending time with family
- Good friends
- The writings of the various bloggers I’ve been following
- The women who have shared their breastfeeding stories with me
- Patience, the process of forgiveness, and second chances
- Every single dessert I’ve eaten this year
- The Universe
The other day, I stumbled upon the HBO series, Masterclass. I was reluctant to view it at first because I don’t typically watch documentaries about art. However, since nothing else on tv interested me at the time, I settled down to watch an episode on OnDemand. That led to me watching several episodes, one after the other. In a word, Masterclass is fantastic. Each episode features a well known working artist who mentors a group of young student artists. It’s a fascinating look into the artistic process. So far each mentor has inspired the young artists to work outside of their own imposed artistic boxes.
Upon viewing Masterclass, I wondered what would have happened if I had devoted myself to developing my art. As a child I was happiest when drawing, reading or writing. I was highly excited to learn to play the recorder at school and had dreams of one day learning the piano, violin or the flute.
But I have this annoying practical side to my personality so I told myself to indulge my interests in career-worthy ambitions like the sciences and treat everything else like a hobby. I suppose I can blame this sense of practicality on being a first-born child who understood a little too well what a lack of money meant. I was also the official family smarty-pants who was meant to go further in life than her parents had.
So I ask the eternal question, “What if?”
Yet, I know the truth. I am highly impatient with the process of making art. I have a brain that has me try to juggle several ideas at once, scarcely finishing one project before starting another. Then there’s the fact that although I have a natural aptitude toward various types of art, I only ever dabble. I don’t think I could ever devote myself to just one thing. This is why I don’t think I could call myself an Artist.
However, whether or not I devote myself to art or call myself an Artist, there is value in me pursuing my creative side. When I create art, I’m forced to think outside of the box. I’m forced to see the subtleties and details of the world. And my art becomes a way for the world to see how I view it.
Watching Masterclass has done more than entertain any notions of artistic regret that may linger in me. It has reinforced the truth that life is only but a spell. Art is proof that we were here and that we had something to say. I’m inspired to leave sticky, artistic fingerprints behind on this Earth.